Recorded Dream #3

This blog is ugly. But then again, who's really reading it? If you are, let me know so i can make it un-ugly.

Today is a good day because it is another day wherein i remember that there is something to care about.

But to see a light oppressed isn't a happy thing in itself. It is a little frustrating to know that you would be able to help, seeing as you have gone through almost the exact same thing, but alas, you can never forget free-will. Which is something I should be happy about rather than frustrated.

Am i just stupid? Am i plotting something out of my reach? Am i just now vulnerable to myself and my passions? If this weren't an adventure i would be totally boring myself.

Is this something so esoteric that i won't even know what i'm talking about reading this a week from now? Should i stay away from something that needs to be esoteric?

(Well, on a side note, privacy shouldn't necessarily be a warning sign considering the function of a chapel veil.)

Within the two minutes that I have left my computer to hang my rain-drenched clothes as my mom asked me to, I just realized how gay and time-wasting this pondering about this subject has been. Yeah, why didn't i just go straight to praying for the little man??

and maybe i just have to contend with the possibility that some people will choose to be stuck forever.

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so i had a dream about liturgical abuse.

i was in a church, but i've never been there before, except maybe in another dream, don't remember. i was in the past; i time-travelled in my dream. it was an AOLG Mass. the presider processed to the front in a mask and instead of the readings they presented excerpts from the Lord of the Rings. I was sitting there observing quietly because I knew this already happened so I couldn't really get mad, because it wouldn't do anything. The "pope" was there laughing and approving of the monstrosity, except it wasn't Joseph Ratzinger it was some other guy who looked like him, and i could tell because of his obvious American accent.

don't remember much else. jade turned into chelsea ulloa. which is weird because i saw them both today. and the one new video on my subscriptions is a video about reform of liturgy.

cuh-razyy!!

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My Mama is sooooo incredible.

There are literally no words to adequately do her justice. There's nothing else to do but give my entire life for her. ugh just

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